January 3rd- No UMYF
January 10th- UMYF via Zoom, 6:00pm
January 13th- Dayspring via online line, 6:30pm
January 17th- UMYF, 6:00-7:00pm
January 20th- Dayspring, 6:30-7:30pm
I have always had an internal conflict when it comes to New Years Resolutions. I find beginnings and endings very poetically enjoyable. Be it when one year ends and another begins or the sun rises and sets. I generally enjoy finding something very beautiful about the whole cycle of ending and beginning. In the ending, it leads us to find peace with the closure and letting go of the day, or the mistakes, or the difficult year (2020). The beginning brings promises of the new, the promise that once again the new has come, that we get a new start, and that we can finally do better and be better.
I don’t find resolutions to be very poetic though. We try hard, we struggle, and then it’s May- and no it’s no longer a new year resolution when we start. It’s a goal. In thoughts, resolutions are beautifully packaged with dreams of a freeing future, and that someday we’ll look back to see where we started and where we ended, and feel at peace. However, the before and after comparison is so much more work than the final image.
One of the places in scripture I find my desire for a poetic end and beginning fulfilled is in Genesis 32 and 33. It is when Jacob has to internally prepare to meet his brother Esau again The brother he betrayed and stole his father’s blessing from him. The reaction Jacob receives from Esau is not the one he expects. Instead, Genesis 33:4 says, “But Esau ran up to meet him, threw his arms around his neck, kissed him, and they wept". After all the rivalry, the battle, the fallout, and the anxiety- two brothers reunite with the one betrayed greeting his former rival in complete love.
This year I want my resolution to be more comfortable with resolving, to be able to resolve the spite and broken relationships, to resolve the internal conflicts, to resolve my doubts and fears, and to be able to let go of what once was and welcome in what's beckoning me to move forward. I encourage you this week to say goodbye to 2020 and welcome in 2021 and to find where God is calling you to reconcile, to let go, and to walk into new beginnings.